PERFECTIONIST
10:17 AM
Is it wrong that one desires to be a perfectionist?Why does everyone does not seem to be satisified with what they get/have and expects more?
I admit I am a perfectionist, or at least I try to be one.
Sometimes I wonder why do I have to do this to myself, stressing myself out in order to BE PERFECT.
Kinda reminds me of the song " Can't get no satisfaction", but applied to my situation where no matter what I do I will never be satisfied. It is never good enough for me and I will only expect more from myself.
Maybe it's because no matter what I do, I do not get credit for it. Even when I got first place for a particular subject in the entire cohort, all I got was a insincere comment of " Oh girl, good job, keep it up" and fullstop. I wish I could sense the sincerity there but I just didn't. Parents who do not give their children enough praises should be sent to parenting school, I swear. They have completely no idea how important that plays a part in their lives, it's a source of encouragement which will really boost their confidence in achieving the targetted grade and they just think " NAH, I am not gonna do that, it sounds so embarassing, I'm not gonna embarass myself"
I have been pushing myself too hard again lately, panicking about deadlines and incompetent team-mates. I think I do deserve the pat on the shoulder for what I do, I put in effort but then people tend to take advantage of that and expects me to do the majority of the work and just be a free-loader. It's like " Let's hop on this train and let this dumb bitch do all the work, we're gonna get As anyway since she wants this so bad"
It's sad how scheming these people are. It's a SAD SAD WORLD, when everyone start to backstab each other. Conniving people everywhere, and all because of getting a good GPA.
Is this what our society has done to us, when they play too much emphasis on academics?
(leave me a comment on my tagboard, I wanna know how you guys feel about it)
